I don't know if you've ever felt like that . That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years , or just not exist , or just not be aware that you do exist , or something like that . I think wanting that is very morbid , but I want it when I get like this . That's why I'm trying not to think . I just want it all to stop spinning . When I cry at night , the only thing I can think to myself is , how can I seem so perfectly fine in the morning . Why do I smile like nothing is wrong ? And how does not one single person notice that I'm not okay ?
Why can't you just love me for who I am?
Jiblints
